queenoftorture's blog

Nocturnal depression
*Nostalgia*
And once again despair is kissing me
With her cold ghostly lips
My own destruction is leading me to my grave
That I digged for many times
And once again I'm becoming a spectral thought
Forgotten, sad, miserable shit
As I fall into the black spheres among lonely memories

You've broken us, piece by piece

The score of my soundtrack is written by blood
Music of suicide written in red
I did it myself, my wrists are also opened
And like my tears, it's cascading
Everything has been lost behind us
On my kness, hands on my face
The sun is appearing into the spring morning
Where I'm lying there's just nothing than my dust

Now you don't care about him
You live on the other side of feelings
But our February snow
is now covering my lifeless body

Become me
Feeling the cold runs over me
When time killed me
Hearing myself, as it warning me
When my vision shows me
The reality that has been trapped
Within the darkness has been felled
Escape my pain towards you
By these words I wrote you
Imagine your eyes, after this bless
Filled with blood, after this mess
Reaching salvation, when only suffer you hear
Scar my nails inside your flesh to make you feel
Giving you the poison that has destroy me
Digging inside your eyes to see
Filling your brain to be
To become me, become me

I need someone to chair
This never been fare
All this pain I could bear
And, I don't care

I feel like something eating me
I can hear my heart beats inside of me
This beats of hope trying to reach me
But I'm looking into your eyes
Washing up all your cries
Saving you from this lies
Giving you my sight
To become me, become me
And save me
Queen of torture

since birth feelings was all what we have,,,
love and to be loved!!
but what happens when the source of love makes u sick
when you love a lie, as i love this life
u care about poeple when they simply don't give a shit
as this love turns to hate,, leads u to total madness
want to break them all to pieces......
so simply i'll take all the love out,,,
and be empty so i can live in this emptyness...
life is nothing, so i'll eat the bond and be releised......
i'll swallow my own veins simply to shape the pain i feel!!!!!!!

You've cursed me
Cherishing and weeping for all my life, secretly
Afraid that I've sinned against God and his prophesy
Everything is wrong, just to cry for all my eternity
Killing my soul in silence
Scar my flesh within violence
Because of you I'm smothered
Since birth I'm slaughtered
Just keep holding me, keep rescuing me
Lead me to heaven of yours, let me see
The light that I seek
But in darkness you've trapped me
You can never love me
Because of this life you've cursed me
And left me float in my own tears
Hiding from all my fears
Begging you for all this to cease
I'm screaming please
I shall wait you to remember me
To get me back again, and leave me be
To curse me once again, just leave me be
Because with this life or without it
I'm born to be cursed
You've cursed me to be cursed